Holy Moly have I been sick the past 3 days! It started on Wednesday night and continued to kill me slowly but thoroughly until today. I seldom get flu like this and unfortunately Gary got sick too so we were both parent down. I always envy people with older kids when they get sick, Dads too actually. You JUST get to be sick. Lie in bed and rest. Moms, not so much.
I ran a fever and shook and shivered (shake, rattle & roll baby!) and wished so much my mom could come and help. Number 1 she lives too far to just pop in and number 2, sister Nina and family arrive from Korea tomorrow and I couldn't risk my mom getting ill. We have discovered the toxins of the chemo linger for months and her immune system stays low. She LOOKS fab tho', I love her pixie hairstyle and like the funky grey too. Before I wanted her to colour her hair and not go grey. It meant she was getting older and I wasn't quite ready for that. Now with her having gone through the chemo and beaten its skanky ass, I am just grateful to have a mom and the hair is a bonus. People love having the 'why bad things happen when God is supposed to be all loving etc' argument. I am not going to get into that here and now but the sweet lessons we learn from times of hardship or trouble or tragedy somehow allow me to see His hand in the good AND bad times of life.
Although I am exhausted, tomorrow my baby turns 5 years old and I am throwing her an amazing party. For me, age five is my fave age. I think it is even more so with little boys but still, 5 is just awesome for me. I have gone overboard with the presents. Because she is so undemanding and fairly quiet, I really wanted to give her much and have this fun party she would love. The weather is going to be stunning... those sunny winter days when the sky is electric blue and everything is crisp and fresh. I've baked, I've wrapped, I've made 26 little cardboard party packs with handles (frikkin' boring and now I am 8 short!) and now its just the last minute stuff to do. Tomorrow I sneak in my little letter to my little love who I am privileged to mother. x
Happy Birthday for tomorrows Birthday Kiddie.I hate getting sick ,I know whta you mean the whole house stands still,hope you better for the party
Posted by: deblet | 29 June 2009 at 04:33 PM
I do hope you're feeling better...
Posted by: angel | 30 June 2009 at 08:09 AM