Winter, not so much.

Drip, drip, drip.  My roof in the children's bathroom is really leaking.  You practically need a brollie when you sit on the loo.  I hate being cold, hate the endless rain and mud.  Some people LOVE winter.  I think in really cold countries, homes are geared up for it with central heating and the like.   We just have heaters that chow electricity.   With the SA energy crises and constant worry about power outages, we can't have all our heaters on all day.  Sorry no post yesterday, Sofia was really sick for 2 days with high temps and sore throat and ears.  I thought it was tonsillitis but it seems to be an ear infection AGAIN despite her being on antibiotics 6 weeks ago.   She is on a 2nd course again and another R630.   Spending money on Docs and medicine is a little like traffic fines.  It feels like such a waste of money but something you simply have to pay.  Last night I started getting sick too and lay in my bed pathetically wishing for Gary to come home to take over with kids and Zara.  
If I had that anon blog I would zip over to have a little spousal vent but not possible so I will just not say anything at all.  Grrrrrrrrr!
In my current melancholic state, I am not only cold and miz but think about the people in the townships all the time.  Living in cold and drafty tin homes, may of them leaking.  People simply die from cold here, it is f'ing ridiculous.   Those mothers I give bags to, many have to take their newborns back to those conditions.   Sometimes I want to die.  Literally, like be in heaven and not have to think about the suffering of people.  It gets all too much, how screwed up the world is, how poor and desperate people are here.   Blech, told you I was miserable.  I think its the yaz, stupid yasmin!   We are no longer BF's.  Silly cow, makes me weepy, periody all the time.  I had so hoped it would be the answer to my nightmare PMS episodes but it seems I need to try something else.  The only real benefit has been perky b00bs which is winner of course.   My perky b00bs and I are going to lie in the bath for a bit and try and thaw out a bit.  Hoping my mood will follow those b00bs and I will be more la la lah tomorrow.

Comments

[Tripsmom]

Why don't you try the Mirena (spelling?). Both my sisters (both hubbies have had the snip) have had the M inserted and say they are different people, no PMS, etc. etc. AND if you are not using it for contraception purposes you can keep it in longer than the prescribed 5 years. I'm going to do it next month - costs about R2000 at DisChem and then you gynae inserts it. Emagine NO period for 5-6 years!!! Can't wait

[Julia]

Mirena rocks!

[Jeanne]

I'm with you on not liking winter (so it was an odd decision to move to the UK!! But as you say, we are set up for the cold...). Vasbyt.

[dawnielle]

jealous. it's hot here and i don't have perky b00bs :) lol.

i hate winter, too. unless i'm somewhere in a chateau sipping a hot toddie i can't stand it. and it makes my hair flat.

maybe you should give a go with anti-d's...??? works for me. much improved

[angel]

So sorry you're feeling so grotty Mel... strongs!

[charne]

last night i was lying in bed under 3 blankets and shivering and my heart was breaking for families that are out on the streets and living in tin shacks!!! why do some people have to live in these conditions! my heart was breaking for those little tiny babies living in this condition!

I am so thankful that I have a home and a warm bed!

Thank you God for taking care of me!

[Kelly]

Have you considered taking Zoloft for PMDD? Made a huge difference for me.