Sorry no post yesterday, I am been chased by that crazy b*tch Agatha! She has been chasing for a good week now and she gets faster and faster. Today she finally got me and she refuses to leave. I woke up at 5.30 to another cold and rainy day. (Summer???) Instead of going back to bed in my daughter's pink bed (yes she STILL comes to the bed EVERY SINGLE NIGHT!) I went to get my journal and bible and thought I would start my day off with a super-size portion of God. We chatted, I listened, got fresh revelations, we then did the yoke swap. God you are peace and love, I am anxiety, aggression, irritable and stressed. You said we can swap and you would carry our burdens. Ta dah! Mmmh, nope. Agatha still there. In hindsight I didn't get to read the bible which I often don't as I get so busy journaling all I believe He is telling me and all I want to tell Him I forget. Maybe I needed to speak some scriptures?
So then I had the proper healthy breakfast, took 2 biral, 1 5HTP, evening primrose, omega 3-6-9, femolin and tissue salts. Waited a few hours but she stayed. I get so tempted to take a xanor when I get this bad but am too scared of getting addicted. Yes I know one doesn't get addicted to anti-deps but things like sleeping tabs and calming valium type pills can be very psychologically addictive. Crappity crap! This is supposed to be gone, this heart racing, dry mouthed, wired state of being. I was better! I was 'cured' after Mauritius. I clearly need to move to an island!
The plus is the amount of work I need to get done for Bosom Buddies and the frenetic energy I have on tap. I am doing a kata box class tomorrow, it will help. Other than that, I will ride out this spell and wait for it to pass, I have done everything else I know how. And no, I am just not going on the anti-dep route. We have had that discussion and I refuse to treat a hormonal problem and its side effects with happy pills when my gut tells me NO. One day I will find the right way to deal with this, the right doc who takes me seriously and helps my whore-moan imbalance.
just know that through all this you are loved!sending you a BIG HUG in empathy!!!!
Posted by: Karyn | 11 November 2009 at 08:13 AM
Ok, you admit it is affecting your life, your family and your peace of mind. Time to look for that Dr in a serious manner. Only you can do this, it is not going away.
(lecture over).
Love and hugs.
Posted by: Coral | 11 November 2009 at 08:24 AM
You need to get the Mirena - it will sort out at least 70% of your hormone problems.
Posted by: Tripsmom | 11 November 2009 at 08:32 AM
Try speaking to Aggie and telling her to Eff Off.
I sometimes find that it helps me to get out of the house and just run as far and as fast as I can until my legs are aching.
It sucks to be anxious.
Big Hugs.xxxx
Posted by: Julia | 11 November 2009 at 08:56 AM
Giggled at the Pink Bed comment.... sounds FAR too familiar. This morning, in the pink bed, I snuggled with Dumbo...mmm romantic.
Hope the week gets better!
JB x
Posted by: JessieB | 11 November 2009 at 10:23 AM
I recommended the 5htp, and now there's a new one to try which is even better....called Sceletium (kanna, kougoed.)
Totally herbal/bushman remedy. A plant/succulent. Wonder pill - ask at a health shop and just read up on it. I've switched from 5htp to Sceletium and really happy on it.
Posted by: Jeanne | 11 November 2009 at 11:30 AM
I agree with Carol. Time to find that Doctor! It's not ok to be going through this when someone out there should surely be able to help you. Good luck Mel. Big cyber hug. xx
Posted by: A | 11 November 2009 at 01:22 PM
I really feel your pain! Have been so GRUMPY and down and I end up wishing the week away- that's not right either! FED UP! xxx
Posted by: Lindsay | 11 November 2009 at 07:26 PM
Sorry you are feeling like this! Bummer!
But I also agree with Carol and A that you have to start looking for the person/doctor/therapist to sort out the hormonal/mood issues. Self-medicating can harm when mixing and matching without knowing if there are any synergistic effects that you may not know about.
Most herbs and supplements have not been thoroughly tested for interactions with other herbs, supplements, drugs, or foods.
It is recommended that if you have a medical condition, or are taking other drugs, herbs, or supplements, you should speak with a qualified healthcare provider.
5HTP increases serotonin levels, which is what you want - but only the right amount as I just read that too much can causes more problems with the symptons being the same: anxiety and depression. So you think it is not working but you are taking too much.
Best go for a full medical check inc all the bloodwork etc.
This site was recommended: http://www.anxietycentre.com
GOOD LUCK!!!!!
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