This baby's gonna blow!!!!!

This morning at 6.30 am I went down to the beach with my good friend Lettie.  We used to walk alot but somehow we have both been too busy to hook up.  She is also a Christian although from a very different church.  What I like about us having huge differences in our churches, is that we never disagree on the big issues as both churches are totally biblical and truth is truth.
I was telling her about my long battle with PMS and how I was going to see my mom's gynae when I get an appointment.  I figure I might as well start my relationship with her now as I will need to be more vigilant with my check ups because of the ovarian cancer that my mom has to deal with.   I was explaining the depression-like symptoms of anxiety, hopelessness, feeling overwhelmed and also feeling very aggressive. I am SO aggro sometimes.  She reckoned it is my normal feelings multiplied by a few wacky hormones which I first denied.  Then I got talking about my week... Saturday I had a guest visitor coming to the the hospital.   Two of my ladies were on, the one didn't pitch (apparently this is the 3rd time) and the other is too shy to pray in front of anyone.  They just handed out the bags and left.  Then I had another incident with a volunteer who felt bullied and pressured and told someone who told someone else who eventually told me.  Blah!   I have another lady who dropped me with something who I HAVE to speak to soon because it is bugging me, I am waiting on money promised to us from somewhere else... all these things. I feel overwhelmed by the amount of work getting my sewing project entails, I have a TV crew coming to film Wed and Thursday and our place is still not ready.  This excludes running my home and my kids and the bible study and this frikkin' pimple that has hopped on my chin ready for the TV crew.   So basically, these feelings are a result of being excessively busy and all the suppressed "pissed offness" that I am carrying.   It is my own fault, when someone drops me I don't tell them how annoyed I am as most of the time I have to see them at school or church or wherever.   I also have this approval addiction crap going on but I am going to change all that.   I will ensure people know being unreliable, uncommitted and bad with time is not acceptable.   I will tell them thank you for their contribution but unfortunately their slot has been filled on the roster as I thought they were no longer coming.   I am obviously grateful for all help with BB but volunteering in this ministry is a privilege and I am done kissing butt.  Done!  

PS, normal nice people with manners and good time keeping who let me know if they can't make it but mostly always do, your butt I will kiss,  mwah, mwah. xx    

Comments

[Tracey]

1) Call when you need a help out
2) How much mullah is needed? - don't have any but can pray good!
3) You hugged and comforted when PMS-ey without saying so and were GOOD at it - give yourself a break girl!
4) You'd better love my dog when she's better - even if she IS smelly and large - she is my GIRL-CHILD.
5) Mostly my time is flexible - yes I'm a little brain dead, and yes, I am a non-competitive, laid-back, non-excercise focused whacko, but I LOVE my God, I am SO grateful to have met you and that you are so cool, and I can be on call in emergencies. I will say so if it's a problem.
6) I'm prepared to be maybe filmed with a model-type and I'm a seal-type - they don't come more committed than that!!
7) Had to stop at 7 cos it's a cool number: I was prepared to p*** off my new pastor for a joke with you - I think you can count on me doing the other stuff too!

Night gorgeous, hope you get tat-man to yourself without the additional blonde tonight! xx

[cat]

Hang in there Mel, hang in there!

[Julie]

I am, as always, in awe of all the things you manage to juggle, and I can only imagine how overwhelming it must be at times. Please just know that there are people out here (over and above all the moms and babies you help) who admire you greatly for all that you do!

[Katherine]

hi mel
do you accept paypal payments? I'd like to donate about 1100 rand to bosom buddies but I'm in Israel and don't know how to get it to you? can you see my email from the comment and email me maybe?
Katherine

[angel]

thats it- put your foot down mel!