I got a bottle of Moet en Chandon champagne for my birthday in April. I love champers, delicious, puts me in a good mood, no hangover, no 'dronk verdriet' (crying or getting all weepy) and just my fave alkie drink. I have been saving it for a special occasion and I have decided that the day my dad comes home and gets to be in his own bed with his own wife and his own dog, is the day I pop that cork and drink those bubbles. I put it in the fridge today as we are hoping for Tuesday or Wednesday. Being a light weight and unable to drink more than 2 glasses, means sharing with my siblings who will celebrate the day with me.
I can't write about my dad and how I feel about it, it is too intense, private and painful. This weekend has been the longest ever. I always say God uses tragedy and sorrow and I see the good side of this whole painful experience. The closeness I feel with my sisters, my brother and my parents. The tenderness I have for my dad. The appreciation of each other and the chance of being able to tell each other we love each other. Only my siblings know how I feel, we all feel the same way.
And God, feeling His presence, His comfort, His compassion. Getting words from people for my father, having people pray for him, its everything. When my heart is broken like this I feel so much compassion for other people. My spirit is sensitive and I see and feel people's pain around me. Thank God it is not everyone, just a face here and there and such a strong sense of their pain.
I told you in my last post about God telling me his grip on my father was super tight and He wouldn't let him fall. I got further confirmation when I got a text saying they were not sure why, but God had given them that childish little song 'He's got the whole world in His hands' over and over again for Pops. Family, I know I don't talk about Lordy stuff with you guys, I am shy about it and also don't want to bible bash or invade your space. I also know you all believe in varying degrees so know this, God has Dad covered. We are not alone in this and even when things look hard or impossible in the natural, God operates in the super natural and is all powerful and loves him even more than we do.
Isnt is wonderful that we have our Almighty Father to keep us strong when we are weak and scared. So sorry about your dad but triple happy that he is better.
Posted by: Me | 13 July 2009 at 07:55 AM
My father had a heart attack and stroke last year and he has recovered and is doing brilliantly. For us, it was a blessing in disguise as he is an alcoholic and he has not touched a drop since. You are all in my prayers, for what they are worth.
Posted by: V | 13 July 2009 at 11:38 AM
Mel I am hoping and praying your dad comes home and all will be restored to normal.
It is very difficult to loosed a parent, its a private anguish one needs to deal with and a sorrow one carries with them forever.
Just remember that no matter what happens, live does go on, your husband and children are strong and healthy and need to keep living.
I am hoping this time next week we will read a "pops happy at home" post.
keep your chin up....
Posted by: summer | 13 July 2009 at 12:43 PM
Looking forward to reading a post about the cork being popped. Enjoy the bubbly!
Posted by: Tiah | 13 July 2009 at 04:01 PM
Still praying all will be well soon.
I know how it is to loose your father and it's not easy,pray he's A1! very soon
Posted by: deblet | 13 July 2009 at 04:38 PM
You are all in my prayers so much. Holding out for that speedy recovery soon. I know it has been HELL for all of you. I am sorry for that.
Love Sue Poo
Posted by: Sue | 13 July 2009 at 04:50 PM
Very beautifully and wonderfully said. People like myself from all over the world are praying for your "Pops."
Posted by: Joy | 13 July 2009 at 11:30 PM
"God has Dad covered."
No, he has you and your family covered. :) I see this close-knit family and I see that your dad is still needed by you all, and it is a grace to you that he is kept. That same quote of yours applies to my own dad, when he was taken away last month. His work was done, it was time for him to be at peace and rest. And God had him covered and decided to take him home, even though it was painful to us all. I like to think that we can really only know God's will in retrospect. As I just told Tertia, take every moment, and hold it tight and treasure it - it is all a gift, sometimes we just realise it when there is the possibility of losing it. I hope and pray that your dad will be kept many, many years still, as a glue to this wonderful family of yours. All the best.
Posted by: Adi | 14 July 2009 at 08:17 AM
Good luck to you all, and can you save some champers for me, it makes me giggly - so silly!
I know Pops will be alright, he has to be.
hugs
xxxx
Posted by: Coral | 14 July 2009 at 11:20 AM